Doing zilch.

Should I list down all the things needed to be done before we reach 2009, it could take pages. I haven’t even prepared the menu yet for my final practical exam. And when will I have the time to shred those extra kilos I gained during internship and those coming up after raya?

But then again, I’m doing zilch.

24 hours. You are lying if you say you don’t have enough time. You procrastinator.

knock knock!

Stumbling across my blog, I bet one would wonder if I only write an entry per year. Well the thing is... I’m somehow busy.

Ok scratch that. So that’s not entirely true. Let just put it this way. I’m lazy.

Now that I have exactly nothing to do, I think I could at least drop a post or two per week. We’ll see how it goes.

jan 2006 was my last post. wait, no. not my last post. my only post. 2006. daymn.

so i guess i didnt write as much as i thought i would have. a few more days to the end of 2007. now what do i have to say about 2007. well, a lot, actually. but where to start? hurm. as for my study, everything's great, i couldnt ask for more. i kept my words on making my parents proud.

time is passing, and people are changing. i know i've changed. i'm more.... reserved now. and hell i dont know whether its a good thing or not. something that will give me advantages or something that will work against me? please be the former one. words are that silence is the best weapon. so please be true.

other than that, ive been doing some so-called self searching. owh yeah really, no joking bout this one. well, 2 close friends of my family passed away. i got a call from my dad one day while i was in class and excused myself to the restroom. he told me the bad news, and that he was in town to pay his respect to the deceased and the family. and just a week after that, mom delivered me yet another bad news. her former colleague, which also happens to be a very close friend of my family, (her daughter was my classmate and is one of my close friends too) passed away after years of struggling with breast cancer. that really screwed me.

i realized then that we really have no control or power whatsoever to decide how our story will turn out to be next. and im far from the right path, and from what i believe in. when will i change for good?

love life? owh please leave my love life alone.

well, 2008 is heading. i cant wait. and i really have to start accepting my flaws and my body. i used to have serious body image issues. yes thats true. well i'll love myself. if i dont, who will? gonna be stuck in it for quite some time anyway.

i create, i dream, i imagine, i fantasize. all inside my head.
no wonder it's getting too crowded up there.
i cant even think straight right now.
i wonder why...?
i wonder why i build up these happy little dreams inside my head?
trying to change what i absolutely have no control of?
well... the best way to make dreams come true is to wake up,
isnt it?
then, i might after all, start seeing and grab what's coming ahead
thank god i'm never serious.
and that explains those crazy ideas.